September 24th 2013

Every time I reach out for someone all I need to do is remind myself of the emptiness that has been growing inside me. It has not shrunk or been filled by kisses or sweet words, drugs or drinks. It has slowly seeped from my brain to the chambers of my heart incubated by growing doubts I casually push aside. When I reach out for band aids and quick fixes all I have to do is remind myself of the last time and how all that got me is here - more empty and less sure.