Now

Now you are sad and scared and every bad feeling you've ever had is welling up inside you. You will cry and go silent for hours at a time. You will want nothing and everything all at once. You will be buried under emotion and you will fight yourself more than anyone else because you are doing this to yourself. You have made a choice and you will hate yourself for it but you know it is right. You are pushing yourself into the open and risking the most powerful thing you have all because you are being selfish. You will continue to be selfish even when it is wrong. You will have to work against those negative feelings towards him and who he chooses to spend his time with. This is not about him, it is about you. You are your worst enemy and your biggest supporter. You have to be strong for you, now and always.